Feeling the Funk

One of the things I do when I get a little behind in writing, is I sit down and make draft posts for what I want to talk about. Rather than the catchy little title you get in the finished(ish) product, I just put in the dry "hey RayRay this is what this thing will be about" subject, if it is a food review I put in the link for the recipe card if it is a workout post I put in a sentence or two about the general material I want to cover. Today I was sitting around waiting for some of my queries to run and thought while my little pc tried to struggle through about 10 years of university enrollment data on a spotty internet connection I might as well set up some posts. After setting up 6 food posts and laughing comically at the idea of even thinking about talking about my workouts of late I realized how long it has been since I updated anything. No IG, no snap, no blog, not even really facebook. Hell, I got new shorties and didn't put up the selfies I definitely took. Hunter tagged me in some stuff so it looks like I'm a functional human I guess. I'm not. Functional that is. I'm pretty sure I'm human, that might be up for debate depending on with whom you speak. My little reminder on this post topic was "Blaahhhhh", very helpful right? I had this tremendous break through with work on how to connect to a data source and then extract what I want and then I fought it for a week on trying to tell the computer what to do in its language (because they don't speak ours). I would have these little moments of clarity where I would drive, or shower, or gym, or sleep and think of a thing to try. Some of those things complicated my life...and some actually did what I wanted. What does that have to do with being behind on posting you ask? I can't write people words when I'm writing computer words (some would argue I can't write people words period but they can go suck it). And like any good little nerd when I feel like I'm on the cusp of a breakthrough I just can't put it down. So if I was in front of the computer I was working. No matter the time. I actually felt like I was working 24/7 for about a week because no matter what I was doing I was running and testing in my head. Sometimes you just can test in your head and just know it won't work. Sometimes you have to sit and run it before you realize you're an idiot and it was a dumb idea. I spend a lot of time in idiot mode. I do the same thing with workout stuff too, I've done that all week. Where I run a thing we are working on through my head and think, well let me do this plus that and see what happens. On a workout it is much more likely to fail. Because I've only been working out for about 2 years and only one of those with a professional guiding me. I've at least been messing around with data my entire adult life, and formally for about 6 years. I realize now I was in a programmers funk on top of a workout funk so I didn't have the mental space to be RayRay...I had to be professional me, client me, mom me (ha ha say that fast), and wife me. I think I fixed my data problem. I have people with more experience than I looking at it to see if it seems reasonable to them. Who knows they may tell me I wasted a week of my life, that no one care about this particular data set or that it is way off or some other disaster. Until then, I actually found myself with energy to throw some people words into the universe. I'm hoping this fixes my funk, and I'll be inspired to write some over the next few days. I owe you guys like 6 or 7 food reviews, I don't know how you've survived without knowing if the Natives were beating the tribal drums in protest.